Incredible! He woke up to eat...played a bit...and decided he wanted to nap again. He's sitting here next to me on the boppy and looking like he wouldn't even be capable of babystorm 2008 (aka the plane ride home from SF).
I can't believe I have a baby.
He's here...with an incredible passel of dreaming expressions: smiles, grimaces, cartoon frowns...he's here and I get to claim him as mine.
It's so odd and wondrous that he's here. Sometimes I think that I'm so flummoxed by it all because I didn't birth him. I mean, he came from me...but I only know that because they told me he did. I went into a room and there was a sheet hiding the lower half of my body and then suddenly like a rabbit pulled from a hat...someone (I think Lee) came around the curtain to present me with this little pale, bundled, shocked person.
I didn't love him right away. I feel weird saying that...but I didn't. What I did feel was a mama tiger protectiveness that was beyond anything I'd ever felt in intensity. I love him now...and it has surpassed that initial feeling by whole galaxies in strength. In fact...every time I try to talk about how I feel about him...I start to cry.
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